Detox/Rehab ' At Last'

Detox/Rehab, yes at last, we've been waiting and waiting for an English Detox here in Montreal, the waiting lists are totally insane.  When the addict chooses to enter a Detox, he/she cannot wait months, he needs to be admitted immediately,  he may not be with us in months.  When is comes to English Detox's here in Quebec it's a crazy situation, after all most of them are 'French Only Detox' which is very sad .and just not  fair. An addict is an addict no matter what language they speak, they should speak English when it comes to something so crucial as this, anyway this is just another can of worms to open.p
My daughter ( the excorsist, lol) which we have temporarly nick named her, she's absolutely wicked when she wants to be. Anyway, we got a call yesterday after waiting quite some time, she will finally be admitted sometime next week for approximately 1 month, then off to a one year Rehabilation program which she definitely needs. This is her first time in a Detox and it will be her first time in a Rehab as well, so who knows what's going to happen, I m only hoping and praying that everything goes well. I m certainly not going to build up expections, but I am not going to be negitive and pessmistic about things either, I am trying to remain strong in other words. I know the percentage of addicts getting and remaining sober is very low. We all pray that our child will be one of the winners, (only if, and if only) is what we often repeat.  My whole world has been turned completely upside down as well as my son's world too, he suffers in silence as he watches her slowly die.  Her body is frail and she's less than a hundred pounds, her eyes are black and her skin is grey, but thankfully her smile remains beautiful. Being admitted to this detox is a blessing, she'll be examined from head to toe, after all the detox is in one of our 'top of the crop' hospitals. Being ashmatic her breathing is very shallow and one of the major side affects to any oppiate is ' resportory failure'  failure to breath or grasping for air. She's been hospitalized numerous times over the last year, either from an overdose or resportory failure where she was immeditaly hooked up to a ventalator.  Besides the ventalator she's usually very dehydrated, and very weak, therefore an IV is administered as well.  In case of an overdose it's a whole different scene, she's then hooked to everything you can imagine, while I pray.  Everything will change now and who's knows what life has in store for her, and for me too as I feel like I am addicted along with her, my emotions have been all over the place.  She lives with me but more often stay's out all night with the 'street kids' as they call themselves going from one street to another one building to another trying to find a warm place to sleep.. 
Actually to tell you the truth I am scared, scared to death to see what's around the corner, maybe because of all the negivtives I have a hard time with positives, but I will do my utmost to change, have faith, and turn this mess over to God because I am unable to take it anymore. 
Amanda, my daughter is an oppiate abuser as well as addicted to many other drugs too, she's shoots the drugs up. I am assuming the detox will take this into consideration and start her with a very high dose of oppiates and bring her down very slowly, probably using Methodone, but I m just guessing because really I m not sure what they'll use.
As you see like many others I ve tried to go on with my life but this has become part of my life therefore I am consumed with it all day and night.
Pray with me tonight, pray for all our children to see the light at the end of the tunnel finally...

Completely Powerless

Who I am?

 I am a broken hearted mother of a beautiful 21 year old daughter who is totally addicted to anything really, however her number one choice is hitting up oppiates, her arms are a complete mess.  After many attempts to help her and many of sleepless nights, I have finally realized I am totally powerless over her addiction and if I try to control her addiction my life will become a total wreak.   I ve noticed that I was becoming addicted to her addiction, my whole life revolved around how I can help her to get help, and nothing worked.  As they say I have to let go and let God now cuz I cannot do anything anymore. I am completely exhausted from all of it.
Because of my daughter's addiction I am financially, emotionally, physically, and spiritually BROKE, she has drained me out of everything.
 As long as I realize I am completely powerless over this sitution and use the serenty prayer I have some peace.  Alot of kids need it but it is only the ones who want it that will get it.
Heart Hugs to all of us